Two pictures from today, both of me just because I can? Idk. My hair color is coming back at least! Ginger is back. I'm tired and my head is a mess. I want to apply for jobs and schools. My cv is almost done but schools haven't really opened up their applications yet.
I feel terrible about everything.
Berlin was really good.
I still feel really shit.
I'm constantly messing up.
I know messing up is a part of life but it shouldn't be this big right?
Dunno where I'm going or what I'm doing at the moment sorry for this. Might be a result of all the stress.
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
I'm a shit friend, shit person, SHIT EVERYTHING really. Also now I'm a self pity piece of shit. I just want to formally apologize for all the things I have and haven't done. I'm going to bed
Thought I start of with a collage of what I've been up to lately (more than working on our series that is)
SO here we go!
November Favorites!
1. What's your biggest achievement this month?
I don't think it's an achivement but I turned 20 which was scary as hell. Geezus it's only a month ago but hell it's easy to forget what I've done..It's been a bit of a blur. 2. Favorites of this month.
I bought a shirt which I'm wearing in both of the Star Wars picures, I bought it on black friday so it was pretty cheap so! Wooh! 3. Mix tape of the month.
*Literally needs to go back an look*
STITCHES - SHAWN MENDES
COLORS - HALSEY
HORISONTEN - PANDA DA PANDA
DECEMBER FAVORITES 1. What's your biggest achievement this month?
I've started to come out to family and it's okay. Whe premiered our series and got really good response! We moved again (haha I know kill me) hopfully the last time until June. 2. Favorites of this month.
Favorite is probably the plane ticket to Berlin. Yep it's time to go back. From the beginning we were set on London but since it ended up being just two of us we decided to travel with the others. I also bought a new jacket on H&M because it was on sale and I have no self control...:c 3. Mix tape of the month.
I really like Justin Biebers new album. I've never been a fan of his music or him really but yikes I dunno something about this really strucks? It's great tbh!
Also BIG BIG fan of Troyes album, I feel like I can't make a post without mention that hah
So to summarize: more or less music that makes me feel good with sort of relatable lyrics?
LOST BOY - TROYE SIVAN
I'LL SHOW YOU - JUSTIN BIEBER
(Side note: I really dig the filming of this music video)
ALLTID LEVA ALDRIG DÖ - ULRIK MUNTHER
LOUDER - ERIK RAPP
Friday, December 4, 2015
Might as well write a quick post while I'm editing and wishing I was someone who didn't choose this career path. At least I wish I was one of the lazy ones. Holy fuck I'm tired and I have so much to do today. School is starting in 3 hours. Tbh that is all idk I'll write when I have something more interesting to say. I'll be opening up my minor technicality blog sometime again soon though..
It's way too late, I'm still up, I'm going back to Stockholm "today" and heeere comes the headache.
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I sometimes feel the need to split in two. One for everyone else, and one for me. What am I even? If not lost. I stopped seeing your dreams. If you won't listen to me I will. I see them. I feel them. You will not walk alone. I'm here. Same as always. More truthful more secure. One step, each day, slow but steady. Right here.
Dunno how well I will make this since right now September feels like a blur but here we GO!
SEPTEMBER
1. What's your biggest achievement this month?
We finished our pre-production for the first episode of our series which was nice. Also had a casting and started filming. Everything moving fast along (feeling the stress yo) but in a good way.
2. Favorites of this month.
I bought 2 nice sweaters and a pair of shorts at a second hand shop, I like em' a lot.
3. Mix tape of the month. Definitely WILD with Troye Sivan, the album has been running non stop since the day of the release. I literally can't get over his music.
OCTOBER!
1. What's your biggest achievement this month?
I've come out to some of the people around me at school, it feels weird but so good. So far the response is good and that they already had a feeling of it,
2. Favorites of this month.
I'VE BOUGHT 2 NEW PAIRS OF JEANS. Best decision I've made in a long time. My trustworthy pair from last year broke (I'm not surprised). They didn't have the pair I wanted but I got myself a pair of gray ones and a pair of black and they are very nice som I'm happy.
I sort of got The Amazing Book Is Not On Fire (heheh) I've just started to read it but idk as a supporter and considering how much I watch their videos and follow their work I kinda had to :)) I love how much detail they've put into the layout and the design.
3. Mix tape of the month.
Aaaah.. for real tho? Still hooked on WILD and I love the new song Talk Me Down. I have been listening to some other stuff too though! Some favorites include
Since it's definitely not Friday let's do a MUSIC VIDEO FRIDAY
I'm not gonna spoil anything about the videos since I liked watching them for the first time without knowing anything about them except the music.
AND THEN COMES THIS WHOLE PACKAGE OF BLUE NEIGHBORHOOD
I'm gonna make a longer version of this but as I said I don't won't to spoil anything, though I just watched the last one in the series and yeah I don't wanna talk about it yet. HA
It's been awhile (more like an eternity but w/e) since I last updated. But here I am (!) less interesting than usual. It's been hectic; filming, planning, working and keeping up in general. Our series is slowly coming to life we're almost finished with the first episode which feels great but oh gosh it's stressful.
Other than that we've been given two work opportunities (so far) and we just came back from Finland where we were filming the Beer Fair they had on the boat. It was an interesting experience and lots of people roaming around but cool in general.
I'm going back home on Saturday and I'm really looking forward to it. I miss my family and friends and very much holding my kitties and dogs mhm ;3;
I will be doing the favorites tag! But I'll probably make one out of Sept and Oct
Probably moving twice without going completely nuts. Starting our series bwah bwah!!!.
2. Favorites of this month.
Bought a nice jacket, it doesn't really look as good on as I wish it would but heeeeyyyy!
Really wanted the shirt to go with it but maybe another time!
3. Mix tape of the month.
Been listening to Troye Sivan's new album WILD way too much.(Going to make a "music video friday" out of the whole angst package) Though it was released in September (I need to make a September favorites soon anyway)eh so.. maybe Florence + The Machine the How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful album :#:
Sunday, September 13, 2015
I've probably mentioned that slaughterhouse five is one of my favorite books, doesn't hurt to remind the world though.
Found this old goodie again and oh supernatural used to be so good just what happened?! ;-;
Not so much to say. It's been a hectic week. We've moved out of the place we lived in for about 17 days and back to the school. Now, me and one of the people I shared 'flat' with before is sharing the old "office". We managed to split it so it looks like we got two separate rooms which feels kinda nice. I'm usually not one for sharing but I believe this will work.
Old office means BIG ASS WHITEBOARD (pretty awesome)
Keeping up the tradition and photographing the same place every time I walk by.
When we finished noomaraton. Mhhm such bags so little sleep.
AESTHETICS!
Office more or less before we moved in. (new picture will come up eventually)
It's been awhile. I'm back in Stockholm and back in school. Everything about our living situation isn't great but it's working for now. Just thought I should stop by and post some pictures from my phone since I can't get the Internet on my computer to work. For that I'll blame my landlords..
Oh my god I have so much opinions about the film/trailer "About Ray" and also what everyone is saying about it and I don't even know if I can express it in text and I just wanna make a video about it and ARGH I'm literally sitting here sweating because of this shitty fever and this just makes me wanna rant for hours. I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY.
Watching one person express their opinion on yt thinking he spoke for the whole trans community also made me pissed so now I will fantasize about breaking stuff because people express opinions and THEN contradict themselves in the same fucking sentence and OH WE COULD'VE HAD SOMETHING GOOD BUT NOW IT FEELS RUINED.
I'm gonna write properly about this (or make a video AH ha) but I'm not excusing the director, from what I've seen he's expressed himself like a fucking asshole. It's fucking problematic and transphobic. BUT at the same time he didn't make the whole movie and it is important to take into count. Some directors are basically massive divas who do nothing but run their mouths (not saying he didn't do anything don't get me wrong ffs) so we need to take the other workers labor in to count!
