antes muerta que sencilla

It feels like I'm all over the place, well in my mind? But I'm kind of just sitting here at the moment. I'm starting to feel better which mean I can't really ignore my homework anymore. I would very much like to just sit and listening to music, read and play sims. But when I know I haven't gotten anywhere on all the work I just feel bad about doing stuff that I shouldn't do. And sometimes I just end up sitting doing nothing still feeling just as bad.

When I don't have the pressure that I have to make something it get so much easier. I don't have to show a result and no one needs to grade the amount of creativity I had at that exact moment (or how much I remembered). I just spent the last hour editing my tumblr theme, and you know what? I applied the knowledge of what I've learnt in the interface design course. I AM LEARNING but the pressure is giving me creative and productive constipation. To be honest I love learning new stuff but I mean the school system is sometimes so blergh because you can't really enjoy that you are learning something because THERE WILL BE A TEST, AN ASSIGNMENT AND A GRADE AND I HAVE TO TAKE NOTES AND I'LL HAVE TO REMEMBER THIS. It's just gets very frustrating at times.

Well I'm going to to open my history book and try to learn something.
Or I'll open my fictional book and just live in another universe for awhile.