Sometimes I wonder if I will look back at this time in my life and be like "gosh, I was so stupid how could I ever think like that" or if I'm going to be like "Hey those experiences got me to where I am today even if it was rough sometimes".
Sometimes I think that I've done pretty well considering my assets but slip back into "Have I really done enough?".
Sometimes I wonder if I am going to change my mind later and it that case, will it really matter?.. does it really matter now?
Sometimes I wonder if I am going to change my mind later and it that case, will it really matter?.. does it really matter now?
Some days I spend too much time inside my own head, over thinking, reconsidering, planning, dreading, dying, dreaming, that I miss the several hours I could have spent doing something more worthy then lying down staring into the room or at the tv.
Tonight I managed to edit a short trailer before going to bed, I got a spark of inspiration or something and just had to sit down and DO ET. Felt much better afterwards. Last couple of days have been kind of...uneventful and I've been feeling really insufficient and like a smashed bug on a windshield, not really sure what I should do, how to help or to activate my brain.
This post is getting out of control. I shouldn't be allowed thinking and writing at the same time.
Once again I'm sort of missing my blue hair, it was kinda rad.
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