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I've spent some time looking trough my old blog (luckily the one that's invisible). I found some interesting things and even if some of it is just pure funny, some stuff is quite..worrying?

The hatred I harbored for the so called brats and "fjortisar" and so much other things. I think I was an angry teenager and in the end even if I was quite shy I became mean. It's like in secret I hated everyone and everything (including myself HiYO there!). I never said things out loud to the people I felt this way about but I wrote it online and it was visible. I was sort of a bully. Which is strange because I've been bullied and it caused so much insecurity that in the end I didn't realize I was doing the same freaking thing. I guess some parts of it is being of a teenager, "new" emotions, jealousy, making mistakes. But I was mean. I don't want to be mean. I don't people to step on me either but I don't want to be like that again. I hope that I'm not anymore...at least not to that extent. I know well enough that I say hurtful things and do things that are wrong but even so:

I would like to apologize even if no one will read it. I am truly sorry, I can't really blame it on anything else that I didn't know better. I'll most probably mess up again but it needed to be said.

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I also found some funny pictures or more like old but yeah, maybe another time :)
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Also continuing my reading I obviously also though that I was a RaNd0M special snowflake at age 14-15 yeah...*coughs*

I'll just hide now..